I want time to stop, just for me. It's a selfish thought but just thinking about my life makes me regret- almost scared that I'm wasting it all away. Do you ever get that feeling? I sleep in on mornings and want nothing more than to stay in bed forever, but this is because I don't sleep at night. I always stay up until three in the morning doing god knows what. Some times, I'm up reading a fanfic, or playing a game on my iPod (2048 drives me INSANE). Other times, I'm just up thinking, kind of like now. I think about what my life will be like ten years from now. Will I be married, dating or still single? Did I choose the right major and career or do I even graduate from university? Did I save enough money for my dream vacation? Am I still living in the same country or did I actually get the opportunity and went through with working abroad?
I think about so many things and well, I'm scared. I'm scared to grow up and find out I didn't become the person I hoped to be. I want so desperately to have my life sorted out and be confident with whatever I do, but the truth be told, I'm no where close to where I want to be. I don't know if I chose the right path, and I don't know where life is leading me. The part that really frustrates me is, with each passing day, I'm getting older. I'm getting older but probably not any wiser. I'm still immature and ignorant in my own ways. No one's perfect, I know that and it's okay. Imperfection is what makes us all human, I get that. But I don't want to disappoint. I'm always afraid of disappointing- myself and others, alike. I guess what I'm trying to say is that, at the end of the day, I just want to know that I will be okay and everything will be fine. I don't want my life to be some wild goose chase that brings me to a fruitless ending. No one wins this game called 'Life'. We all walk out dead, and probably sorry for all the dumb, stupid things we've done. Even if I don't win, I still want to walk out knowing I made a difference, and I'll be remembered.
Even Robots Need Blankets - Mayday Parade
Where Did The Party Go - Fall Out Boy
Disclaimer: I do no own any of the videos/songs above. All rights and credit goes to the rightful owner(s).
I want time to stop, just for me. It's a selfish thought but just thinking about my life makes me regret- almost scared that I'm wasting it all away. Do you ever get that feeling? I sleep in on mornings and want nothing more than to stay in bed forever, but this is because I don't sleep at night. I always stay up until three in the morning doing god knows what. Some times, I'm up reading a fanfic, or playing a game on my iPod (2048 drives me INSANE). Other times, I'm just up thinking, kind of like now. I think about what my life will be like ten years from now. Will I be married, dating or still single? Did I choose the right major and career or do I even graduate from university? Did I save enough money for my dream vacation? Am I still living in the same country or did I actually get the opportunity and went through with working abroad?
I think about so many things and well, I'm scared. I'm scared to grow up and find out I didn't become the person I hoped to be. I want so desperately to have my life sorted out and be confident with whatever I do, but the truth be told, I'm no where close to where I want to be. I don't know if I chose the right path, and I don't know where life is leading me. The part that really frustrates me is, with each passing day, I'm getting older. I'm getting older but probably not any wiser. I'm still immature and ignorant in my own ways. No one's perfect, I know that and it's okay. Imperfection is what makes us all human, I get that. But I don't want to disappoint. I'm always afraid of disappointing- myself and others, alike. I guess what I'm trying to say is that, at the end of the day, I just want to know that I will be okay and everything will be fine. I don't want my life to be some wild goose chase that brings me to a fruitless ending. No one wins this game called 'Life'. We all walk out dead, and probably sorry for all the dumb, stupid things we've done. Even if I don't win, I still want to walk out knowing I made a difference, and I'll be remembered.
Even Robots Need Blankets - Mayday Parade
Where Did The Party Go - Fall Out Boy
Disclaimer: I do no own any of the videos/songs above. All rights and credit goes to the rightful owner(s).
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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I want time to stop, just for me. It's a selfish thought but just thinking about my life makes me regret- almost scared that I'm wasting it all away. Do you ever get that feeling? I sleep in on mornings and want nothing more than to stay in bed forever, but this is because I don't sleep at night. I always stay up until three in the morning doing god knows what. Some times, I'm up reading a fanfic, or playing a game on my iPod (2048 drives me INSANE). Other times, I'm just up thinking, kind of like now. I think about what my life will be like ten years from now. Will I be married, dating or still single? Did I choose the right major and career or do I even graduate from university? Did I save enough money for my dream vacation? Am I still living in the same country or did I actually get the opportunity and went through with working abroad?
I think about so many things and well, I'm scared. I'm scared to grow up and find out I didn't become the person I hoped to be. I want so desperately to have my life sorted out and be confident with whatever I do, but the truth be told, I'm no where close to where I want to be. I don't know if I chose the right path, and I don't know where life is leading me. The part that really frustrates me is, with each passing day, I'm getting older. I'm getting older but probably not any wiser. I'm still immature and ignorant in my own ways. No one's perfect, I know that and it's okay. Imperfection is what makes us all human, I get that. But I don't want to disappoint. I'm always afraid of disappointing- myself and others, alike. I guess what I'm trying to say is that, at the end of the day, I just want to know that I will be okay and everything will be fine. I don't want my life to be some wild goose chase that brings me to a fruitless ending. No one wins this game called 'Life'. We all walk out dead, and probably sorry for all the dumb, stupid things we've done. Even if I don't win, I still want to walk out knowing I made a difference, and I'll be remembered.
Even Robots Need Blankets - Mayday Parade
Where Did The Party Go - Fall Out Boy
Disclaimer: I do no own any of the videos/songs above. All rights and credit goes to the rightful owner(s).
I want time to stop, just for me. It's a selfish thought but just thinking about my life makes me regret- almost scared that I'm wasting it all away. Do you ever get that feeling? I sleep in on mornings and want nothing more than to stay in bed forever, but this is because I don't sleep at night. I always stay up until three in the morning doing god knows what. Some times, I'm up reading a fanfic, or playing a game on my iPod (2048 drives me INSANE). Other times, I'm just up thinking, kind of like now. I think about what my life will be like ten years from now. Will I be married, dating or still single? Did I choose the right major and career or do I even graduate from university? Did I save enough money for my dream vacation? Am I still living in the same country or did I actually get the opportunity and went through with working abroad?
I think about so many things and well, I'm scared. I'm scared to grow up and find out I didn't become the person I hoped to be. I want so desperately to have my life sorted out and be confident with whatever I do, but the truth be told, I'm no where close to where I want to be. I don't know if I chose the right path, and I don't know where life is leading me. The part that really frustrates me is, with each passing day, I'm getting older. I'm getting older but probably not any wiser. I'm still immature and ignorant in my own ways. No one's perfect, I know that and it's okay. Imperfection is what makes us all human, I get that. But I don't want to disappoint. I'm always afraid of disappointing- myself and others, alike. I guess what I'm trying to say is that, at the end of the day, I just want to know that I will be okay and everything will be fine. I don't want my life to be some wild goose chase that brings me to a fruitless ending. No one wins this game called 'Life'. We all walk out dead, and probably sorry for all the dumb, stupid things we've done. Even if I don't win, I still want to walk out knowing I made a difference, and I'll be remembered.
Even Robots Need Blankets - Mayday Parade
Where Did The Party Go - Fall Out Boy
Disclaimer: I do no own any of the videos/songs above. All rights and credit goes to the rightful owner(s).
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