Hello my precious, precious little ones! I have finally risen from under your bed to haunt your dreams. I'm just kidding. I've been MIA for a few months since school has started and things have been hectic. I'm actually procrastinating right now by writing this post because I have a french assignment to finish but rest assured, I am alive and well (maybe more so physically than mentally... I'm sure my unnecessary rambling shall explain why this is, further into this post. So scroll on my little stars)!


I'm sure that for those of you who are doing post secondary studies, you know that the fall term is coming to a fast end. Ugh, the blood, sweat and tears that have gone into all the midterms and tests I've done this term. Okay, so perhaps I may be exaggerating a little. There was no blood but I did sweat (the heating at our school is a little old and wonky and running after the bus during my early morning commute is the very definition of "extremely out of shape"). I did cry a bit (when the wind hits ya in the eye, it gon' water and tear okay?). All jokes aside, I feel like I'm struggling with my studies a lot more this year than I did last year and it's bringing me down. It's stressing me out (only because I know I can do better). If I weren't any wiser, I would blame it on the professors and the disorganization of the courses but smart little me also knows that deep inside, part of the blame is myself. There, I admitted my faults. Now don't make me say it again or I might just lose my temper. Poor little me doesn't voice my mistakes all too well, okay?

So let's start off with a little recap of what happened after I wrote all of my midterms. I barely finished my Stats midterm on time so I was bracing myself for the worse but apparently, since everyone complained that an hour was too short, our lovely professor took off 10 marks from the total and added 5 marks on top of that. His reason? To make the class average a 70 rather than a 60... It doesn't bother me I mean now I'm literally doing a lot better than I originally thought so why not? I was expecting the worse for my test results in my Microeconomic Theory class. Let's just just say the rock bottom I was anticipating is a lot better than the mark I received.  If you've studied statistics before, you'd know that if the fourth quartile ranges from 42.5% - 95% it's bad news. Our class average was a 23% and the kid that got a 95%? Thank you for not rubbing it in our faces. Obviously you were the only one that did something right while studying so congrats, you have officially beat the system! Give yourself a pat on the back and if you don't know already, a lot of people are envious of you. Sadly, being envious gets you nowhere (I've got to keep repeating this to myself).

On the first day of my micro theory class, I remember thinking, woah, this prof is young, cool beans! He must be in his early thirties at most. He's not that much older than the rest of us so he'll probably go easy on us, right? After all, he is the "new meat" of the Economics department. Boy was I wrong. Metaphorically speaking we are the pulp that is made into paper. Smushed, squeezed and then flattened  and dried. So I'm not going to lie. I was really upset when I got my mark back, even though I was among the select few that passed (less than 25% did). So I guess I was angry at the prof for refusing to give us extra marks but after some self reflection, I probably didn't study as much as I should have. Although I don't agree with the analogy he used, (why give money to the poor for doing absolutely nothing) I do agree that he doesn't need to give us extra marks that we don't deserve. And so, at the end of the day, I decided it was partially my fault and partially his. Fair enough, right?



Moving on! So now, finals are just around the corner and I literally have this bad feeling in my gut. I mean I'm going to study in advance like I always do (cramming the night before never works) but something tells me it's not going to be enough. I'm literally going to have to read the textbook inside out and then then do the practice questions numerous times so that the concepts are engraved into my brain. If I do any less than that, I feel like history is going to repeat itself and then there will literally be blood, sweat and tears... and for no good reason.

Holiday shopping is really bugging me too. I mean today is Black Friday and I got some Christmas shopping down but yeah, living in Canada means the sales aren't as good as the States. I did manage to buy a couple items (mostly for myself, oops) but I don't think my wallet is too proud since it's crying out in pain. Maybe some retail therapy can help relieve some of the pre-exam jitters, ya feel? Well who am I kidding, I'd take any excuse to go out and shop since these past few weeks have been nothing but assignment after test after presentation. You don't need a valid reason to justify your actions at that point, right? I NEED TO BREATHE AND BUY THINGS TOO. IT MAKES ME HAPPY! So where am I going with this post? I have no clue. Now I'm just being irrational, for all I can tell.

SO HERE'S MY FAVOURITE PART. I'M GOING TO SHARE SOME OF THE MUSIC I'VE BEEN LISTENING TO LATELY. YA READY??


Room To Breathe - You Me At Six

Dear Maria Count Me In - All Time Low

사랑이 올 때 (When Love Comes) - Lee HongKi

Labels: all time low, JaeJoong, sweet-but-wicked, winter, you me at six

Hello my precious, precious little ones! I have finally risen from under your bed to haunt your dreams. I'm just kidding. I've been MIA for a few months since school has started and things have been hectic. I'm actually procrastinating right now by writing this post because I have a french assignment to finish but rest assured, I am alive and well (maybe more so physically than mentally... I'm sure my unnecessary rambling shall explain why this is, further into this post. So scroll on my little stars)!


I'm sure that for those of you who are doing post secondary studies, you know that the fall term is coming to a fast end. Ugh, the blood, sweat and tears that have gone into all the midterms and tests I've done this term. Okay, so perhaps I may be exaggerating a little. There was no blood but I did sweat (the heating at our school is a little old and wonky and running after the bus during my early morning commute is the very definition of "extremely out of shape"). I did cry a bit (when the wind hits ya in the eye, it gon' water and tear okay?). All jokes aside, I feel like I'm struggling with my studies a lot more this year than I did last year and it's bringing me down. It's stressing me out (only because I know I can do better). If I weren't any wiser, I would blame it on the professors and the disorganization of the courses but smart little me also knows that deep inside, part of the blame is myself. There, I admitted my faults. Now don't make me say it again or I might just lose my temper. Poor little me doesn't voice my mistakes all too well, okay?

So let's start off with a little recap of what happened after I wrote all of my midterms. I barely finished my Stats midterm on time so I was bracing myself for the worse but apparently, since everyone complained that an hour was too short, our lovely professor took off 10 marks from the total and added 5 marks on top of that. His reason? To make the class average a 70 rather than a 60... It doesn't bother me I mean now I'm literally doing a lot better than I originally thought so why not? I was expecting the worse for my test results in my Microeconomic Theory class. Let's just just say the rock bottom I was anticipating is a lot better than the mark I received.  If you've studied statistics before, you'd know that if the fourth quartile ranges from 42.5% - 95% it's bad news. Our class average was a 23% and the kid that got a 95%? Thank you for not rubbing it in our faces. Obviously you were the only one that did something right while studying so congrats, you have officially beat the system! Give yourself a pat on the back and if you don't know already, a lot of people are envious of you. Sadly, being envious gets you nowhere (I've got to keep repeating this to myself).

On the first day of my micro theory class, I remember thinking, woah, this prof is young, cool beans! He must be in his early thirties at most. He's not that much older than the rest of us so he'll probably go easy on us, right? After all, he is the "new meat" of the Economics department. Boy was I wrong. Metaphorically speaking we are the pulp that is made into paper. Smushed, squeezed and then flattened  and dried. So I'm not going to lie. I was really upset when I got my mark back, even though I was among the select few that passed (less than 25% did). So I guess I was angry at the prof for refusing to give us extra marks but after some self reflection, I probably didn't study as much as I should have. Although I don't agree with the analogy he used, (why give money to the poor for doing absolutely nothing) I do agree that he doesn't need to give us extra marks that we don't deserve. And so, at the end of the day, I decided it was partially my fault and partially his. Fair enough, right?



Moving on! So now, finals are just around the corner and I literally have this bad feeling in my gut. I mean I'm going to study in advance like I always do (cramming the night before never works) but something tells me it's not going to be enough. I'm literally going to have to read the textbook inside out and then then do the practice questions numerous times so that the concepts are engraved into my brain. If I do any less than that, I feel like history is going to repeat itself and then there will literally be blood, sweat and tears... and for no good reason.

Holiday shopping is really bugging me too. I mean today is Black Friday and I got some Christmas shopping down but yeah, living in Canada means the sales aren't as good as the States. I did manage to buy a couple items (mostly for myself, oops) but I don't think my wallet is too proud since it's crying out in pain. Maybe some retail therapy can help relieve some of the pre-exam jitters, ya feel? Well who am I kidding, I'd take any excuse to go out and shop since these past few weeks have been nothing but assignment after test after presentation. You don't need a valid reason to justify your actions at that point, right? I NEED TO BREATHE AND BUY THINGS TOO. IT MAKES ME HAPPY! So where am I going with this post? I have no clue. Now I'm just being irrational, for all I can tell.

SO HERE'S MY FAVOURITE PART. I'M GOING TO SHARE SOME OF THE MUSIC I'VE BEEN LISTENING TO LATELY. YA READY??


Room To Breathe - You Me At Six

Dear Maria Count Me In - All Time Low

사랑이 올 때 (When Love Comes) - Lee HongKi

Labels: all time low, JaeJoong, sweet-but-wicked, winter, you me at six

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

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